Psalm 130:4 NLT 
'But you offer forgiveness, that we might learn to fear you.'
Being forgiven means to have a debt paid off. When I had to give up work to care for the one I loved, I began to run up debts. When she eventually died after 18 years, I faced up to the debt I’d accumulated. I discovered the weight of it as I failed to find work with a suitable salary to service it effectively. That weight was lifted when an aunt left me some money in her will. As one might expect with God in charge, the inheritance matched the entire debt. In an instant, it was wiped out. The relief was immense. I wondered, if God had taken care of this obstacle, why was I worried about anything in life? It proved a profound learning point. 
In our walk with God we each are aware of sin; it drives a wedge between us and God. We’re also aware of his love and forgiveness, so do not need to carry the weight of sin on our own shoulders. The problem is I often want to keep a foot in both camps. I want God most definitely, yet I also enjoy what to me is sinful. As I mature, I recognise that God leaves it with me to make the choices that define my life. I can choose to step away from sin or to entertain it.  
I discovered the choices I made really turned upon the respect I had for both God and myself. God isn’t interested in performance. God is all about the heart. It takes time to become consistent and in learning consistency, many of my flaws and fractures are addressed. I learn to live single-mindedly, devoted to God and his purpose. The weight of sin is lifted from me, for it is no longer my problem. I enjoy the forgiveness of God and, out of gratitude, try to serve him continually. If I am hijacked by guilt and despondency, I can do nothing but yield to God – and he always has my back. I must work on my consistency.  
QUESTION: How consistent is your walk of faith? 
PRAYER: Forgive me when I play around with sin, Lord. Remind me what it cost you.  

Released on 23 Sep 2020